#NewRelease NOTHING by Roy Askham #fairytale #noir

DESCRIPTION:
Edwina James has a very unique ability, she inadvertently channels the incarnations from her past lives. Most days it’s inconvenient, but Edwina and her fiancée have learned to live with it as much as practically possible. That is until a powerful witch, nicknamed the Tigress, who thrived on the innocent eight hundred years ago, sets her sights on her future self-Edwina. The Tigress wants to take her place in the twenty-first century and has the magic to make it happen, so she sends her consciousness into a dimension that is void of matter. Edwina tries to get back home, but that may prove hard, without a body or a sentient thought. If she can free herself, she must find a way to defeat a witch who is cunning and willing to stop at nothing to get what she wants.

EXCERPT:

My heart is beating fast as my friend David, who will give me away appears, ready to escort me through the back door where I will exit for the last time by the name of Edwina James. He shouts, "c'mon guys, let’s go," as he loops his arm around mine ready to move out into the back garden, where the man of my dreams awaits.

Then, something happens that scares the **** out of me. I start to feel a bit dizzy. Oh god, no, please don’t tell me it’s happening now! I couldn’t bear it. I feel a cold sweat flowing through my entire being, and I feel that I am going to faint. Within seconds I am floating above my body which is now lying near the back door.

Wedding guests are milling around my lifeless body as I watch in terror from my out of body position at the level of the ceiling.

Jack hears the commotion and rushes inside. He is frantically slapping my face and saying, "Edwina, it’s okay, it’s me Jack, open your eyes. Calling out to the guests, he shouts, "someone call an ambulance."

And then it happens, my worst fear has manifested, as my body begins to sit up and look around with glazed eyes. I go into a state of total panic. Looking on, helpless, I realize that it must be the Tigress who is in control of my body.

I am a nervous wreck and absolutely petrified as I float very close to the ceiling, where I hear the following words from the one who has possessed me and is now sitting up and smiling saying to my guests casually, "don’t worry everyone, I'm fine, I'll be back to normal in a minute."

To me through thought transference, she snarls. "Now what are you doing up there out of your body Edwina? I mean, if you don’t want it, I can sure use it." Then, she laughs hysterically and says through telepathy again, ‘yes, I have decided that I will use it and do as I wish with it. In fact I know what I’ll do; I'll send you to a state of nothingness, where you won't even be able to watch from above like you are doing now Edwina. In fact to make it a lot worse for you, I'll tell you what I’m going to do whilst you are in isolation forever.

In a minute, I'll go into the back garden and marry Jack, and he'll think it's you and that all is fine again. And guess what Edwina, whilst you are in isolation and in a prison cell of my making, I'll be having sex with Jack later. But that’s not all I'll do with him. As you know, my powers are endless, so it will be really easy to turn him into a slave where he will be at my beck and call. And Edwina, neither he nor you will be able to resist my powers. You’ve seen me in action before, so go, be off with you and leave me with Jack to do as I will. Oh, by the way, before you leave, I want you to know that Jack will not be able to bring you back like he did the last time, because I'm now aware of the trigger he used before, and I’ve already made that system un-workable. Well I see you are still there Edwina, so please **** off."

Within seconds as terror reigns through me, I find myself spinning through some sort of energy vortex that seems to go on and on, spinning endlessly. And then without notice, I find myself in a void of nothingness. There is no sound, and I cannot see anything. In fact, my five senses are non-existent; all I am is consciousness. What the **** is happening to me? Where am I? I do not have a body; not even an astral body, which is the body that I have previously used while astral travelling. 

A very strange thing is now entering my consciousness; besides not having any arms, legs, head, eyes, ears or a body at all, I do not even have any emotions. I cannot feel any fear, or love, or compassion. I am nothing but pure consciousness; just consciousness witnessing nothing.

I can in fact think; I am a consciousness that can think, but when I do think, my thoughts do not produce any emotions. I am just a thinking consciousness, and that’s all I am, because there is absolutely nothing else.

Without any fear in my consciousness, due to no emotion being present, I find myself contemplating my previous condition in a much deeper way. The power of my mind has previously caused certain things to happen. If I have become angry, it has caused my heart to beat much faster than normal. And if I have been nervous, I have felt the sensation of butterflies in my stomach. However, I have no emotion at the moment and do not have any of these reactions which are normally caused by thoughts of despair and terror while being in a situation such as this. I do feel very lost at the moment and am wondering how the **** I am going to free myself from this very strange condition.

Strangely, due to having no emotions, my heart is not beating at a hundred miles an hour, and I do not feel sick due to my predicament, but nevertheless, I still feel the dire need to escape, because what kind of a life is this? And I need my emotions back.

But how the **** do I get away from this nothingness? What do I do? I mean, there is nowhere to go; there is nothing to see or hear. Where do I start? It seems impossible to go anywhere from here. It's not like I can see something in the distance and head there, what the **** can I do?

This situation is really bizarre. I am wondering what the **** the Tigress is doing with Jack. I want to feel angry, but I can’t, I have no emotion. All I know is, I should be there with him and married by now. Jack and the Tigress are probably having our wedding meal. Jack will be giving a speech and saying how much he loves me. The Tigress will be smiling and portraying herself as me, and knowing her, later she will let Jack know that it's her and not me.

God knows what might happen. Just like Edward was petrified when he first saw the Tigress, Jack will be scared stiff with no way of escape, as her powers are endless.

There is nothing I can do to help him, and I feel very, very lost, not scared, but lost. I feel like I have been dropped into a deep black hole where nothing exists whatsoever. There is neither time nor space here; there is absolutely nothing. I have no concept of time at all. I cannot comprehend the length of time I have been here, because time has no meaning now. I could have been here for hours, or even a day, I wouldn’t know.

So what will I do? There is nothing I can do. My body won't get tired, because I don't have one. I won't get hungry or thirsty either. There is no window to open and see out. I cannot read a book or magazine or watch the television. The whole earth could disintegrate and I wouldn't know. If it did, I'd probably just stay here in this nothingness forever.

I think, and think, and think, but there does not seem to be an answer at all. I try to move my consciousness back and forth but I cannot move, even if I could, there does not seem to be anywhere to go. 

ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Throughout his life, Roy Askham has seen all sorts of signs and signals relating to things that manifested at a later time, and he knew there was more to life than just random events, that he was part of a divine plan that is easy to see if one is alert.

He enjoys imagining fantasy worlds, and his enthusiasm for writing is evident, bringing historical, time travel and paranormal elements into his work, three things he is passionate about.

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